Today is my first day at a food bank
The first time I’ve had to ask for help
The first time in a long time I’ve had to rely on others
I haven’t trusted my life to others
Since the world broke my heart
My trust to dust
My friendships I’ve left to rust
Today I had to admit defeat
I can no longer retreat
To the safety of my home
Because my home’s in danger of foreclosure
That’s not a metaphor
I’m screwed and scared
I’ve never dared think I’d fall this far
Down a well of issues and emotions
The walls too slick and I can’t climb out
Two more years
Two more years and I’ll have a one loan paid off
Maybe a few hundred dollars freed will help the dominos fall
Maybe it won’t make a difference at all
But I can’t see past today
And today I had to rely on people for help
And to me that’s the scariest thing of all
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